A Mission Trip Can Change You

To all those who played a part in getting me to Africa:

I don’t even know where to begin. My heart is overflowing with the generosity you showed by contributing money and prayers for my trip to Zambia. Now that I am home, I can hardly believe God allowed me to be His hands and feet. We were told not to have any expectations for the mission trip and to go with an open, flexible mind. I think I did pretty well in that department. I must say, it was way better than I could have ever imagined it would be. I got to experience firsthand how to use a drill and watch life-giving water flow from the ground. As we drilled the well, village kids would surround our work site. Looking at their faces and knowing that this water was going to change the lives of their families, kept me fueled and ready to work in that hot sun. And guess what? We struck water within 6 hours of digging! This picture is us jumping for joy and celebrating. God is so faithful! Here is something I wrote in the middle of my trip:

Lord, praise you for your goodness. 4 months ago, I didn’t even want to come on this trip. However, your best is what I needed. You have great things for me on the other side of my fear. Today seeing the sweet faces of the little children melted my heart. Hearing the story from an older local whose granddaughter drowned in a handmade water hole was heart-wrenching. Although the hole where his granddaughter drowned is covered up, we got to see the new hand-dug hole they use now. The water was dirty and contaminated. They drink this water! Also, getting to go into a school and teach the word of God was unreal. There was much dancing, singing, and celebration. It was amazing. Your goodness, Lord, is evident every day but today I saw You in the simple faces of little children who are so appreciative of just being around us and playing football (soccer), throwing a Frisbee, and blowing bubbles.

Now that I read this two months later, I am even more grateful. The work is not finished, and the work will continue. The Living water team is terrific. When we gathered with the community to dedicate the well, my heart leaped out of my chest. Not only was this just physical water, but it was the living water of Jesus. We praised God as I’ve never seen before. I learned so much from a people I thought I was going to save them by giving them freshwater; however, they gave me so much more. They showed me that I don’t have to be consumed by the things of this world. There is a contentment that far exceeds the things I have. Because of Jesus, I can be thankful every day. He has provided everything that I need.

Did I say I was thankful?

Thank you again,

If you want to learn more about Living Water International, just click the link. http://www.water.cc

“Greater love has no one than this, that someone lay down his life for his friends.” John 15:13

Mountian, God’s bigger

As I sit here at my desk in my office and stare out my window and talk to my daughter on the phone and write this post, the first thing I notice is the white covered high peaks of the mountain right in my view. I’ve never been one to want to climb up a mountain. It’s too high. It’s too tiring. It takes too much effort. You see, it’s more than just about a mountain; it began when I was a young child. I would attempt to press into something new and exciting, but something would happen midway through the process…..I would give up. Time and time again I would give up. I could blame it on the fact that I didn’t have anyone behind me speaking words of encouragement. You know, that person who is on your team 100% and speaking words of life…..”You got this….You can do this…..Don’t give up!” These words speak life.

“Pleasant words are like a honeycomb, sweetness to the soul and health to the bones.” Prov. 16:24

You know what? I could play the blame game if I desired to stay stuck. However, this girl chose to take a different path a long time ago. Even with this desire in my heart, I still felt like I was at the base of a mountain looking up wishing I had the guts to start climbing. Every time I took a step it felt like self-doubt, shame, guilt, and fear would cause me to back off. It was the voice in my head that was sounding like an old-negative bullhorn. I wrote the word old because I’ve heard its voice for so many years. We can listen to something so long it becomes so familiar we begin to take ownership of it.

Do you allow negative thoughts to speak louder than the truth in your mind? Do you surround yourself with truth-tellers and cheerleaders? Do you believe that through faith mountains can be conquered in your life?

“A merry heart does good, like medicine, but a broken spirit dries the bones.” Prov. 16:22

Dry bones are such a compelling vision to me. I know weird. God speaks of bringing life back to dry bones in Ezekiel 37. Yes, God brings life. He restores new life in each of us. It doesn’t matter where we came from or the hand good or bad that was dealt to us. He brings newness.

I don’t know what lies ahead in my life, and you don’t either. Both of us together can choose to live as if we have already won the battle because we have already received victory in Jesus.

Are you staring at a mountain in your life right now? Speak these words of truth right now into your circumstance….”Nothing is bigger than my God!”.

Don’t quit!

“Now to Him who is ABLE to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within us..” Eph 3.20

*Please pray for me (and my team) as I step out of my comfort-zone in a few weeks and do my first mission trip to Zambia in Africa. God is big.

Let Go, Girl

Loosen your grip! Has anyone ever said that to you? I remember I was getting ready to get on a small roller coaster (I mean small. I wouldn’t get on anything bigger). As I was moving up the line, my knees were shaking. I thought of one thousand reasons I should push my way through all the people in the back of me and run. When it was my turn to sit and buckle in the chair, my husband was telling me to relax. Now, I’m sure I would have enjoyed the ride more if I would have released my grip a bit of the pole in front of me and opened my eyes so I could see what was ahead. Nope. I clenched my way through. Let’s say that was my last roller coaster.

I’m ok with never going on a roller coaster ever again, but I don’t want to walk through my life like that. Being scared to move forward. Being scared to let go of something. At 50, I can’t remember a time in my past where I felt the most compelled to step out of my comfort zones. In the past, my thought was…..”It’s ok to be settled and comfortable and know what’s coming around the corner. There is security in feeling settled where you are.” I have a strange thought, but I wonder if those sitting around Peter in the boat when they saw Jesus walking on water in Matt. 14: 22-23 were comfortable right where they were (they were scared to death). However, Peter was the only one who jumped at the chance to jump out of the boat and walk to Jesus. For a minute all his fears where gone. Were the others thinking…”Boy, sit down.” Good old Peter, lol!

Where would we go if fear did not stop us?

Picture this, your boat is tied up at the dock, but the only way you can get to your purposes and the things that God has planned for your life is to untie the boat and drift out into the deep. A place where you can’t just put your foot down for security. A place where all you can do is trust in the results God has for your life. Believe me when I say I’m not a good swimmer. My life experience from my past has taught me that it’s better to stay in the shallow. My misguided view of myself has told me I’m not good enough or qualified enough to swim in the deep.

But.

Honey, Girfriend, I am more than worthy of going where my God is leading me. What about you? Are you ready to loosen the grip of whatever it is that’s holding you back? Open your eyes big and read this……You are worthy of everything God has for you. You are stronger than you think because you got Jesus on your side. Your greatest blessing could be waiting for you in the deep end of life.

I dare you to pray this…God, pry my hand loose if I’m about to miss the best you have for me. We hold on to so much don’t we?

“The Lord directs our steps, so why try to understand everything along the way?” Prov. 20:24 (ok, then:)

I’m not Hidden

There I stood in a crowded room; people passed by, as I begin to blend into the background. I tried to join in on conversations, but my words could not convey what was going on inside. Did anyone notice me? Does anyone realize the hurt and pain inside? I feel trapped as if there is nowhere to run. Is there not anyone who can rescue me?

If the above scenario sounds familiar, then you will relate to what I’m about to tell you.

For the last two years, I’ve been battling in some dark places. I’ve had many different battles throughout my life – broken home, failing marriage, and losses of various kinds, but this battle was something else. This battle was from some place else. The battle was raging in my mind.

You see, suddenly I found myself trapped by old lies that were resurfacing. In my inner strength, I found it getting harder and harder to fight.

It didn’t take me long to realize I could not fight this battle on my own (Shoot, no!) I had to turn to a truth that was deeper than the surface turmoil that was consuming me. It was there in the dark places that I would remember who my God is..

He consumes me with his love.

As I look back on this now, I remember the nights were the worst. The only thing that would comfort me, while staring in the darkness throughout the night drenched in fear, was the sound of music playing from my K-Love station (They didn’t have the Air One station yet;). I would also sit on my closet floor cradling my Bible and reading scripture like the one below:

“If I say, “‘Surely the darkness shall cover me, and the light about me be night, ‘” even the darkness is not dark to You; the night is bright as the day, for the darkness is as light with You.” Psalm 139: 11-12

Even as I sat there in that dark place, this verse made my heart leap. Think about it…God sees me in my darkness. The times when I feel the most alone, He is there. He suddenly becomes my enough.

He loves me
He is for me
I am chosen
He won’t leave me
He sees me
I am made complete in Him

He releases the grip of the strongholds that want to weigh me down.

My biggest stronghold is fear. I am tempted in my own devices to be afraid of the unknown. I wrote about this in a blog post called Limited Visibility, but It’s like the feeling I get when I am driving in fog. It can be paralyzing not see and know what is three ft. ahead. During that dark time in my life, I was determined not to let fear keep me trapped and stuck, and I know there are many things that can cause people to be stuck…  loneliness, pride, rejection, fear, and sin. I was determined not to let my fear be bigger than my God.

He causes my heart to long for truth, when all I feel is utter despair.

In my darkest times, I felt comforted as the consuming lies were replaced with the healing touch of God’s presence; however, even in those moments there were times I didn’t (feel) the presence of God, I had to cling to the truth that He was there. This truth can be found in His word, music, encouragement of a friend, sitting in solitude (Did you know you don’t always have to have something to say? Sitting quietly in His presence is an awesome place to be).

He takes me to a higher place.

I feel like the darkness had been lifted. I am coming into a renewed revelation of who God is in my life. The truth that God is enough, even when I feel I’m at my worst. He is not looking down on me thinking “Man, how come this girl hasn’t got her mess together yet?” He sees a woman who deals with the wounds of brokenness, and a woman who clings to the truth in the messy details of her life. All the while, believing that she is a work in progress and has been made new by the blood of Christ.

He sees you, too, my sister:)

Where are you? Don’t worry your God knows. He loves you so much He sent His Son to rescue you. And, the great news is He loves you just as you are. There is no shame in needing Him every second of the day. He is in the midst:)

Jesus, I need you!

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Don’t Stop Short of Your Victory

Last week kicked off my son’s flag football season, and as I was sitting watching his out-of-shape-ten-year-old legs run as fast as he could, I started to notice something. Every time a teammate threw the football to him; he would stop and wait and anticipate that someone was waiting to snag the flag from his body. I’m telling you even if no one was within a hundred yards of him..he stopped and waited. Because of what he thought was the inevitable, he let the fear freeze him in his tracks; instead of running to reach the goal.

As I thought about this scene a few days later, I couldn’t help but think….. How often do I stop short of reaching my goals, sitting there just waiting for the defeat that I think is sure to come.

For me, this might look like stopping short of receiving my blessing or breakthrough. An example would be my desire to lose 10 or 15 pounds. My thought process would be. “Well, I tried to eat healthily and exercise for a week and not 1 pound has moved from my body.” And guess what? I quit and stop there in my tracks.

Who knows, I could have been one glorious step away from having that long awaited desire fulfilled.

You see, It’s easy to get stuck in the rut of weariness of the same old mundane mess. Daring not to step out in faith because the routine seems all too familiar.

The Israelites are a perfect example. They were wondering around in the desert eating the same old food each day while walking to what seemed like nowhere. The routine was getting old:

“Now, when the people complained, it displeased the Lord; for the Lord heard it, and His anger was aroused. So the fire of the Lord burned among them and consumed some in the outskirts of the camp. The people cried out to Moses, and when Moses prayed to the Lord, the fire was quenched.” Numbers 11:1-2

It had only been three days from the Exodus from Egypt. I mean they were tired, thirsty, and sick of eating the manna every day.

They were giving up too soon. Stopping short of the victory that was ahead of them. How often do we find ourselves right there in the same mindset of the Wilderness Wonderers?

Funny thing – I’m beginning to learn more and more that when I persevere and get where God has purposed me to be; it ends of being everything I wanted along. I’ve seen this happen in my life time and time again.

My friends, listen we have a High Priest who synthesizes with our weakness (Heb 4). He knew we couldn’t live this life on our own. Praise God! We don’t have to live apart from His power. We get to run our race with endurance.

“Not that I have already attained, or am already perfected; but I press on, that I may lay hold of that which Christ Jesus has also laid hold of me.” Phil. 3:12

 

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Nothing Is Wasted

Last week, I poured my heart out in an emotional live video. (If you aren’t joining me on my A Woman’s Faith, I would love to have you join. The link is in the sidebar in the sidebar on the home page:)

As I kinda ran through a quick journey of my life, I realized that life seems so hard at times.

Why does it seem like there is so much pain in people’s lives- cancer, finances, divorce, lack of work, loss of homes, depression, national disasters….the list goes on and on? The one thing I find that gives me comfort in any hardship is the realization of knowing I’m not alone.

 

 

Hebrew 4 says I have a High Priest, Jesus Christ, who sympathizes with my weaknesses. He not only sympathizes, He lived it. Jesus relates to pain and suffering, and He was even tempted, yet He did not sin. This idea brings me such peace and security. Also, Romans 8:28 says, “And we know that all things work together for good to those who are called according to His purpose”.

This doesn’t mean everything will work the way I want it to, but it does tell us that it will work out for the good.

Ok, what does this all mean? I’ve come to the conclusion that no matter what this life may hand me I can stand behind the truth that Jesus is with me, and I can hold on to the truth that everything in my life can be used for the purpose of making me more and more in Christ’s likeness. Also, I might add, without all the hardship and pain in life I would not have seen my need for Jesus, and that would have been tragic.

You see, I’ve seen God’s hand print on my whole life. And get this…. God didn’t promise to deliver us from all our circumstances; in fact, He told us we would have tribulation. He did, however, promise to be with us.

Nothing is Wasted: You are…..

W- anted, A- adopted, S-aved, T-reasured, E-steemed, D-elivered

 

Women’s Event 2017

I had the awesome privilege of speaking at a women’s event at my church on May 13th, 2017.

Fragrance of Jesus

Compassion is the sweet fragrance of Jesus… Someone around us needs to sense His presence in their life.

I had just written the above in a post; then I stepped into my son’s room to wake him up for school. To my surprise, I smelt some perfume in his room. I was a little confused, but I walked back to my bathroom.

I stood there and looked into the mirror, and it hit me the sweet presence of Jesus was all around me. I couldn’t do anything but cry. God’s grace is so good.

You see, a few days ago I almost let my busyness cost me the opportunity to be the sweet fragrance of Jesus. I let the fast track of trying to get to a football practice cause me to be rude and short to a guy walking up to me to ask for help for gas.

My focus at the moment was getting to the next thing. I was tired. I was late.

But, my son, who was in a better spot of offering compassion then I was at the moment, stopped me in my tracks. “Mom, I can’t believe you aren’t helping that guy out. He needs your help!”

My unrestful heart quickly turned into a convicted one, so I pulled my car over to go back and help the guy. I apologized to him for my rude behavior, and he was so forgiving. I also apologized to my son, and I sought my Lord’s forgiveness.  I had let my busyness of doing… overshadow my ability just to be present.

So, that morning, as I stood in my bathroom remembering that sweet smelling aroma. It reminded me that I am in the presence of the Living God. His blood has cleansed me. I can stop and rest in that on any given day. I don’t have to be consumed by my “got to’s.” I get to put myself in a position to be a sweet fragrance in someone else’s life.

If you are anything like me, you have those moments where you forget to just slow down and rest in the presence of God. May this be a reminder not to be so hard-pressed to deal with the urgent that you miss the important things. The best things. But in those times when we forget, God’s grace is so active and real.

“Therefore be imitators of God as dear children. And walk in love, as Christ also has loved us and given Himself for us, an offering and a sacrifice to God for a sweet-smelling aroma.” Eph. 5:1-2

 

Sitting in His Presence

 Most mornings, I sit in my chair in my living room with my bible and my devotion book and say, “Ok, God, speak to me! Fill me up with Your presence.”

Something new I started doing is mentally envisioning a pitcher being poured over my head (I am a little wacky:). This pitcher represents the power of God being poured into me. I sit there until I am completely full and overflowing.

 One thing I have noticed big time is that on the mornings I don’t take the time to stop and have my appointment with the Lord…I feel it. I operate on empty instead of full. My thankful heart easily turns into a heart of grumbling. This is not how I want to live my day.

My friend, this is my prayer for us today:

We will believe Jesus is for us and that He delights in us.
We will believe He sees us longing to know Him more.
We will believe He meets each of us right where we are.
We will thank Him daily for loving us in the midst of the process.

We thank Him for today. It’s a new day.

 My presence shall go with you, and I will give you rest.” Exodus 33:14

Ponder ~ What is my daily habit when it comes to spending time with the Lord?…This can look different for everyone:) Are you operating on empty or full?

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Daily Reflection #10

Waiting in the Lord

Have you ever found yourself in the pattern of waiting for something to happen? Such as….waiting for an answer to come in the form of an email or phone call; waiting for healing in a broken relationship, finances, physical pain, or healing from strongholds. Whatever situation that is causing

us to wait…It can be hard.

Waiting is where I find myself right at the moment, as we wait to see what the next step is going to be for our daughter after finishing college. It’s very easy for me to let the fear of the unknown creep in. It is also easy for me to want to retract my open-ready-to-give-everything-to-God extended hands. I want to take control and say, “I got this. I know what’s best in this situation.” However, we all know there is better way:)

Releasing. Surrendering. Trusting that God knows and He sees the big picture when we only see in part. When we choose to wait with our hands extended, we allow our faith and trust to grow. We rest in a faith that says, “My God is for me, and He knows the work He is doing in me and my family.”

My friends, where do you find yourself this week? Like me, do you need to rest in the season of waiting? Join me in trusting God to be God. He’s good at it!

Lord, today I want to choose peace. I don’t want to live in turmoil.

But those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint. (Isaiah 41:31)

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